Raining

It's raining here again
Last night, I lay awake, staring at the ceiling and listened to the rain play a drum beat in the alley.
I've been feeling less and less like myself lately, more out of control
I've never been so scared for so long
I'm starting to wonder if I have some sort of chemical imbalance
Maybe it's just me giving in to those voices in my head telling me I need to listen to her heart
Maybe it's just me being maudlin
Maybe the music speaks to me because I feel that way
But then again, who's to say the music isn't causing the misery
I've got a real chicken and egg dilemma on my hands
Oh well, time to get back to work and trying not to dwell