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Everything needs to fade from starlight into bright of day
From what I hear
Nothing gold can stay
But Billy West got a new lease on life
Maybe things won't be so bad for me
I still have a long way to go though

I've always had this sort of lifetime near-sightedness
When I was 18, I never thought I'd live past 25 for whatever reason. I just couldn't imagine myself then, what my life would be like
Had a girlfriend back then.
She used to ask me about the future all the time, was she in it and all that.
I would always just say that I couldn't see myself in the future
Really had a problem visualizing it
But it sounded like a shitty, passive-aggressive way of saying “don't plan on sticking around, babydoll.”
But I was telling the truth, maybe I just don't have a future
So when it finally dawned on me, that I'd probably make it past 25, I had to start making other plans
Took the peircing out of my tongue
I want to still have my teeth in ten years
Quit smoking
Don't want to be coughing out my lungs at 45
You get the idea

So now I'm in another kind of transisiton
Relationship crucible
I guess you got to just be yourself
Run it up the flagpole and see what happens
Sink or swim
Just say what's on your mind
For better or for worse