I'll keep singing this lie

...if you'll keep believing it.

I've got sunshine in my veins, a wash in blue and silver
the smell of oranges and summer
there's a blue house, a long way from here, where your ghost still walks around
holds conversations and smokes cigarettes down to the filter,
where my jokes are still funny, and your hair still looks great,
at least in pictures

the clouds rolled out a long time ago, but i swear they're back
my bathroom smells like ohio
a long car ride, airport to hit the bricks
hide and seek and regan abounds thrown off the grounds with the grounds
we won't always love these selfish things
I voided the warranty a long time ago, cut the tape in front of a club so exclusive
even I can't get in
I've got the stamp to prove it
I'm a one man army, at war with myself, the demons in my head

my mom always said I was so nice and sweet... so what happened?

but then you always said I was so funny...

I won't always love these selfish things, sometimes I'll love the things you want me to

I'm still driving away and I'm sorry everyday

Update

Ok, yeah I know I know.  I'm totally unavailable and cryptic these days.  Just sending 128 character updates from my phone doesn't keep you, the people, informed about my life.  So here goes, open wide...

My life is good right now.  I have a girlfriend who cares about me but lives 1,000 miles away and a job that runs me ragged so I forget how badly that sucks.  But all in all, I shouldn't be complaining.  My job, which is working from within the casting department for the new ABC show Ex-Wives Club.  A lot of my job has to do with casting, but some of my job has been doing some shooting for the show.  All in all it has been a very good experience.

Things with Steph are good.  She is living with her Aunt and Uncle in Pine Island, MN and enjoying the cold weather.  I think she is yearning for sunshine, so for all of you Californians, look for her to become your new favorite person late in 2006.  Peace.

Josh

Hotel Life

Yeah, it costs  the company a lot and they supply sumptuous supplies all in your room, all complimentary, but hotel life still sucks.  I'd rather share a $30/night piece of shit room with someone close to my heart.  Beautiful and empty, this hotel rings just lonely.

<3

J

And thank you to sheila, scott and k.k. Frank was the man, but so was the the duke, no matter what you say. Thanks for the stories

So it looks like this is turning into a great opportunity for my career. Thanks bryan, andrew, jarrett, lillian, and you.